I’m really tired of not loving my body. I’m tired of that voice in my head that says I’m not thin enough, or tall enough and that I’m getting old. I’m tired of being worried about the texture and color of my hair. And I’m tired of being hungry in an effort to fit into a certain size. AND I’m tired of wasting so much time thinking about it over and over and over! When will I ever be happy with my body? Why can’t it be enough already? Why can’t I love myself just the way I am?
Let’s be really honest here. This is not just about weight. Having extra weight on our body is an area that a lot of people focus on. But I know women who are small and thin and yet they wish they had larger breasts. Women with curly hair who want straight hair. MEN who want to have more muscle definition or more hair! So NOT being happy with our body is an issue that most of us deal with!
How much time and energy and MONEY could we save if we just loved our body? How many businesses would go out of business if we were happy? We certainly wouldn’t be supporting the anti-wrinkle cream companies, hair dye manufacturers, or most of the clothing companies out there!
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying I want to lie around all day, get really heavy, eat whatever I want (OK I do want to eat whatever I want) but I’m not saying I want to be unhealthy. I’ve been there and done that and the negative self talk almost killed me. Depression swept me under fast and hard and I almost didn’t make it out. Luckily, I found yoga, lost 40 pounds and am healthy and happier than ever…….BUT that stupid voice is still there saying “It’s not enough, You’re not skinny enough, Who’s going to want to follow you in a yoga or fitness class?” It really pisses me off that voice.
So what am I gonna do about it? How do I make that voice shut up? How do I love myself fully – just as I am. I want to stop putting so much emphasis on my weight. I’ve already pitched my scale. I’m still in the same size jeans….It’s just THE VOICE. And the only way I know to battle THE VOICE is to call it a liar every damn time. To replace that script with positive loving words.
When I hear negativity I plan to say to myself, “You are soft and curvy. You are more than your weight, You are so sparkly that people are drawn to you! You are caring and kind and loving. Your body is strong and fit and you are healthy. I’m going to repear over and over and over that I AM ENOUGH” Because there is WAY more to life than worrying about weight.
My favorite quote lately is by J.K. Rowling: “Is fat really the worst thing a person can be? Is fat worse than vindictive, jealous, shallow, vain, boring, evil or cruel? Not to me.” I totally agree. And now the work begins to be kind to myself!
Since I know I’m not alone in this I put out a call for photos from my friends that make them feel brave. Photos that make them feel LOVE for their body. So here are a few of the brave people in my life. And let me just say most of these people have either lost weight, work towards being healthier every day of their lives – mentally and physically and each one of them is beautiful to me!
Kassandra Burnham – runner and camel rider!
William Billy Knox, Ganesh Warrior and Yoga DUDE.
Carla Bigelow (and her husband). Carla runs Fidalgo Pool & Fitness Center, teaches multiple group classes & swimming lessons, is a Red Cross Emergency Responder, mother to 6 kids and all around amazing woman!
Heather Roderick – Warrior Goddess
Angela Strand – Mom, Wife and Author of Northwest Healthy Mama
Michael DiMeo – YMCA Yoga Instructor, Shiner of Love & Light!
Jillian Dees at 37 weeks pregnant!
Jamie Lucas Smith – Being more active and Loving herself at 40!!!!!
Leslie Kiger – Body Transformer!
And finally…..ME. Working on loving myself just as I am.